Asking wisdom

For the Lord gives wisdom;
    from his mouth come knowledge and understanding;
7 he stores up sound wisdom for the upright;
    he is a shield to those who walk in integrity,
8 guarding the paths of justice
    and preserving the way of his saints.
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Proverbs 2:6-8 

I like asking for wisdom from God in a precise way. I value honesty and authenticity so talking to him in detail matters to me.

This morning on the way to work, I thought that if my God is my husband, I shall talk to him about everything. I mean every single little thing. This is what I would like to do if I had a husband.

I'm interested in a man who is my ideal, cannot forget about him every morning and night. It became like a pain, that I kept thinking of him with romantic stories. It feels good but it is not there. Sometimes the imagination overpower my emotions and I lose my control which is not a good sign.

I spoke to God honestly and asked him what he wanted me to do. The attitude, heart, feeling, mind and so on.

How long do I need to wait?

Do I actually need to wait?

Why do I need to wait?

What am I waiting for?

I was asking for all these details.

The Lord reminded me about his goodness in the past till now. His faithfulness, providence and grace through good and bad situations. All ended up 'good'. Yes, He is good and will be good in the future too. Therefore, I decided to wait for his goodness which was a great wisdom from above.